Lately I have been thinking about next steps. Next steps in trying to figure out what I am supposed to do with myself.

As is approach my mid-forties (yikes)  I know one thing. It’s that I don’t feel fulfilled. I don’t think that I am doing what I should be.  Most days I am not happy or even excited to start the day.

My problem is how do I get there. Never mind spending time analyzing how I got to where I am today. That has become a vicious circle that has left me worse off.

I realize that just can’t stop working and live out everything that is going on in my head. I can’t hope that I win the lottery tonight. I have to stop thinking about thinks from the past, that if I had turned left instead of right.

I know that soon I am going to have to change. Change the direction  that I am going. I think that I am going to have to do this one step at a time.

So over the next few weeks I am going to trying to find those things that bring me joy. That make me what to get up and do those things.  I need to find something that will become my “ side hustle” something that will get me out of this rut. I truly want to believe that change will be coming soon